I had some really good feedback recently for No Man’s Land that basically boiled down to, “love the characters and the setting, but the action starts too late. Integrate the two plotlines better.”
Thirty seconds of internal wailing later because my book is perfect and they just don’t get iiiiiit and you know, ok. They’re right.
And when I started thinking about it, ideas started bubbling. Start with Ghost and Nat. Start with them fighting something. Bring the vampires in. Keep the outline of the story, but integrate more. It would be a full rewrite but would leave the core of the story intact, I’d be able to re-use most of what I currently have, and I could do it for NaNoWriMo!
And then reality sunk in.
It’s going to really hurt.
No Man’s Land isn’t an easy story to carry. It came out of Dresden, and carries a large piece of my heart anyway; the characters came from somewhere tangled, and seem to have so much woven into them that it’s going to be hard (and emotional) to pick them up again. In terms of actually writing, I’m kind of screwed as well: my original circle of support for the book got trashed as one of my beta readers isn’t particularly in favour of me, the second is dead, and the third’s about to have a baby. The person I wrote a lot of the stories for isn’t here; I shelved Ghost and No Man’s for a year because I couldn’t face the world without Ryan to read them, and even now I’m feeling pretty shaky about diving head-first back into it all. It’s not an ideal situation for ripping something to pieces and putting it back together, and on top of that, re-writing a 70k novel that’s already fairly decent and needs to be made better isn’t exactly a piece of cake.
It’s all pretty scary.
And this is the point when I either shelve it permanently, or I fight back.
Fuck it. I’m fighting.
(And with any luck, that’s going to feed into Ghost. If anyone needs to be spiky and sarcastic, it’s my beloved spirit-talker; and I’m going to put every bit of fight into her.)
Ps. In-progress 4am messy scribbles for the new start!
Some beautiful foxes from the Art of Sandara.
This was from a prompt I was given for Amsterdam – my fingers are twitching to amend it, so it may change a little…but I think it’s ok for a draft.
Home is turning a city over and over in your heart, jigsawing the pieces, wondering if you turn it the right way maybe it will somehow fit-
-and home is wondering what one piece you’re missing, what shape you’re meant to be, because nowhere feels quite right.
Home is a fragment of every place I’ve loved, swapped with a shard of memory, and welded with broken longing for something that won’t ever exist again, not like that, not like it was.
Maybe home should be a place where I look across rooftops and know every spire, every shortcut; have a heartache for every corner, a laugh for every golden hour, a secret for every drink.
Maybe home should be the way the wind ripples the water, the sunlight on tarmac and paving, the step around the crowd on a corner. The one cracked tile in the grand facade, the tiny alley leading to the best pub, the glare of orange lights as I turn into my street.
Maybe home should be the warmth shared over a meal; the one loaned book on a shelf of loved pages; the music that fills a silent room.
Maybe home should be the way you smile at me.
I’m back in Amsterdam again for a long weekend, and aiming to spend some time writing in between wandering around canals, eating cheese and buying chocolate!
While – as usual – I have a pile of work to do and some private edits to read, I also want to get some writing done:
- I still have Greensky number bloody 10 to finish…I am not feeling delightful, but I need to write it. So that has to happen.
- A writing challenge: this time, it’s “home”. I’ve had a couple of writing challenges when I’ve been here previously – a soppy love story and a thriller (which didn’t work; I’m not cut out for thrillers) – so I’m going to be interested to see what comes of this one. As the challenger pointed out, it could be sentimental or could be a bit more objective…so we’ll see!
- I’m starting a new Dresden story – it’s using a few different characters but seems to be taking shape so far, so we’ll see what happens with it.
Also, Badger seems to be happily writing their story, which is awesome – I’m really looking forward to seeing what ideas come out, even if it’s just snippets as I get things bounced off me.
May or may not manage a post for Monday – I’m due back pretty late!
A beautiful wallpaper of sky ships from Hanyijie. Frustratingly, there only seem to be wallpaper site links to this image… it really annoys me when I can’t find the original artist! (Also, on a related note: screw Pinterest. CREDIT STUFF!)
Anyway, have some inspiration for a Wednesday.