Grumblegrumblegrumble

05/02/2014 12:47

I’m having a bit of a down day today…it’s ok, I’m not looking for sympathy; I just want to put this here as a counterpoint to the optimistic posts that I usually put up. A bit of reality, I suppose. And it makes me feel better to get it out.

 

I just had another two rejection emails from an agent (two branches of the same one; children’s and adult). Obviously, it was a no – they’d “read the submissions with interest” but don’t feel passionate enough about the work. Which is fair enough, but doesn’t really help me.

I can write. I know I can. I’ve seen enough shit from other people, I’ve edited enough texts and read enough awful writing to know that I am good. The feedback I’ve had has never been “oh my god that’s awful”; it’s always been little improvements, little suggestions. But I don’t know if they are right – are they just trying to spare my feelings? Do they really think it’s all readable?

And if they’re right and I am right, that I am a good writer (with the proviso that I’m always trying to get better) then the endlss rejections are even more demoralising. There’s nothing I can actually DO, nothing I can work on – I just have to wait for someone to get the “right feeling” and like it enough to take a chance, and I can’t help that at all. And the one publisher who was interested in Greensky, I’ve heard nothing from recently. I know she’s busy, but the radio silence really doesn’t help: I don’t even know if they’re still interested, and if they are, when anything is likely to happen. I knew publishing was a long process, but it’s still frustrating.

So if this batch of agents doesn’t come back with anything, then I’m giving up. I’ll keep writing, of course, and I want to self-publish Madcap Library. But whenever I get the last rejection letter, that’s it for trying to get published at the moment.

 

Just…BAH.

Author: kate

Kate Coe is an editor, book reviewer and writer of fiction & fantasy. She writes the sparkpunk GreenSky series and blogs at writingandcoe.co.uk. When she's not working, she fills her spare time in between writing with web design, gaming, geeky cross-stitch and DIY (which may or may not involve destroying things). She also reads far fewer books that she would like to, but possibly more than she really has time for.