Apparently I’ve been volunteered for karaoke at FantasyCon this year…THIS MEANS I HAVE TO SING.
WHICH MEANS I HAVE TO FIND A SONG I KNOW AND CAN ACTUALLY SING AND ARGH.
Before anyone starts panicking on my behalf, it is optional – and I’ve said that I’ll see how I’m doing on the night. So I’m not exactly panicking, just…nervous.
Music is one of the things I feel like I’ve failed at over the last few years; I was trying to pick up piano again thanks to a gorgeous grand piano in the University of Gloucester chapel, and having been informed that I can actually sing (thanks, offhand teenage comment that stuck with me and convinced me that I couldn’t for however many years) I started taking lessons, just to get some breathing control techniques. But it was one of the things that fell by the wayside due to depression (as my fingers don’t always do what I want them to when I’m not great, and panic attacks don’t help with breathing control) and then when Ryan died, I didn’t feel like singing. I’d occasionally sing to myself in the car, but I used to wander around the house humming or sing in the kitchen, and after he left I just…couldn’t.
I’m still not really back into it; I just don’t have the heart most of the time. But I think that I’d like to pick a couple of things that I could potentially do for karaoke, and learn those: if I have a goal, I think that will make it easier.
I’ve got a couple of things I already know and like – U2’s I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For, The Eagles’ Desperado, Cranberries’ Zombie, Will Hoge’s version of Even If It Breaks Your Heart. And I know that Son Of A Preacher Man is in my range, so that’s something…I have quite a sweet voice, so I’m going to have to find something that fits that, as well as finding something in my vocal range and something that I actually like.
But if it gets me singing and learning again, then even if I don’t want to sing on the night, I think it’ll be worth it!
I might not go for this, though. Trust me, it doesn’t work.