No post on Monday because this weekend completely wiped me out; I didn’t make BristolCon and barely made it off the sofa on Sunday!
But, happy things for October?
1.I feel like an editor!
“Hi, [Agent]. If you’re after David, he’s probably covered in paint while entertaining a small child. It’s half term.”
“Actually, I wanted to tell you I’ve got the latest by [novellist] ready, but I need a million pounds.”
“Uhh… nope. I can draw you a treasure map, how’s that?”
“Oh, that would be a wonderful diversion. So no million pounds?”
“No million pounds. How about a hat?”
“A fabulous hat?”
We did actually get onto discussing another book – and it felt like everything was there. I could chat, knew what I wanted to ask, knew when to check with my colleagues… you know when you feel like something just clicks? It doesn’t happen often but it was really good – I felt like I knew my stuff!
2.Happy pills – literally!
I’ve been on anti-depressants for a month now; they are doing some good (I have been baking, although no small birds have been helping me yet) but I’m still feeling a bit grey. I had a discussion with my doctor about upping the dose, so I’m just going to keep trundling along for a bit and see how I do.
I can feel things slowly breaking up, though – I get flashes of what feels almost like spotlights. The sunlight through the trees, an offhand comment that sparks a moment of story or character, a brief moment of hope for the future – and then it goes again, but it gives me hope that it will lift eventually.
It is very weird feeling again when you haven’t been able to for a while, though. I’m expecting it to be a bit rocky when everything does hit in again!
Erin Lindsey’s A Golden Grave turned up in the post; I’ve finally got Kindle editions of Three-Body Problem, Witchsign and Embers of War; I’ve started reading The House of Shattered Wings (I adore Aliette’s short stories and I’m enjoying the novel so far!); and I’ve had some wonderfully fun books at work.
Add to that my haul from FantasyCon and it’s been a good month for reading!
I need to do some reviews…
We’ve been given a bagful of pears, so I previously did a pear & almond & dark chocolate cake, and this weekend tried a pear & pecan cake – both from the BBC Good Food Cakes & Bakes book, which is one of my favourites. It’s got flour stains, folded corners, post-it notes, butter splashes and sugar in the spine. It’s well-loved, basically.
I also made sweetcorn muffins from Jack Monroe’s cookbook – I’m making more things from that, which has been fun!
It was really good to see people at FantasyCon, and it’s been lovely connecting with people on social media recently – I actually feel like I can cope with the world! (Ish). Everyone is absolutely lovely and supportive too, and it keeps making me cry (in a good way).
I’m also planning birthday and Christmas presents for various people, and that’s lots of fun! I’d forgotten how much I enjoyed it!
Also, I’m really looking forward to Christmas!