It’s quite a cute ghost too.
It’s quite a cute ghost too.
Idea entirely stolen from Pastry & Purls! (Who is fab, by the way. Go and read her for knitting, books and allotment adventures).
Languages; I’ve installed Duolingo and I’m brushing up on my French for ten minutes (aka. my morning commute) every day. So far I’m still just brushing the dust off my memory, but I’ve been doing it for two weeks and it reckons I’m 22% fluent, so not too bad! I estimate I’ll hit 50% before I start learning new stuff, as I did AS Level French so all the tenses are in there someplace…but it’s a really good feeling to be doing something productive.
Pearl barley; I know it sounds ridiculous but I love the stuff! You can put so many options with it, and I’ve been having it for lunch for the last few weeks. It’s a small thing but it does make me happy.
Wonderful friends; recent highlights have been Portal earrings, stupid cat pictures, Pikachu hugs, some lovely meals out…I’m leaning a lot on a few people who are being absolutely lovely and very patient with me, and it’s really nice to be able to just contact them and know they’re there. Everyone I’ve spoken to recently has been wonderful (thank you Facebook people!) and I’m super appreciating it.
New writing; I can’t say much about it (it’s erotica!) but I’m definitely enjoying it. The couple is mega fun to write and I keep giggling to myself. I’ve had a short story in the series accepted (yay!) so currently expanding it into novellas – more work, but I love it!
And finally, a new tune that I’m loving – Dan Auerbach’s Shine On Me.
I’ve got a friend watching over me at work now…
I still miss him. I talk to him every day – my commute takes me past the railway bridge, and I always say hello, or call him an idiot, or just smile. I write something I think he’d enjoy, or glance at my phone to see if I’ve got a message, or think of something I want to put in a game.
His favourite was Pinkie Pie, but I never entirely understood that, because he didn’t seem like a Pinkie Pie. He was either Twilight Sparkle, or more frequently – when he’d just drilled through a pipe, or tripped over nothing, or nearly dropped the tea, or done something stupid in-game – Derpy. And so it felt entirely fitting to have a small smiling Derpy sitting on my desk to remind me that my friend will always be around; it’s nice to have the memory just there. It’s also helping me when I think of him – it means I’m not dwelling on the memories, as I can just attach them to something and then move on. It’s been really hard recently, and I’ve hated having time alone to think (despite time with people being equally hard) so I’m hoping this will help.
I’m learning more about him too, which makes me miss him all the more – I wanted to discover the things with him, and have that beaming smile. He could shoot well, had his own airsoft pistol, and enjoyed doing it – something I wouldn’t have expected from the Ryan I knew. I can see facets of his personality in his interactions with others; his profile picture with his brother always makes me blink, because they’re both pulling faces – that was the Ryan I knew, but it’s just a reminder that I only knew a slice of him, and he relaxed so much with others, too.
I do also have another friend at work…he was left behind by one of my colleagues’ daughters, and so he’s been helping me with my anxiety days! He now has a post-it on saying “Free for bunny hugs” as I don’t want anyone to think he’s just mine. Everyone was incredibly chilled at the fact I was hugging a bunny for most of a day last week, which is brilliant. I think one of the major facets of making people in general more aware of mental health is just normalising the coping mechanisms. If I need to go for a walk or hug a bunny, then hey, that’s fine – and I really hope that’ll extend to anyone else in the office who needs the same thing for any reason.
And there’s the puppies, of course, who are always up for hugs – or pulling the head off a stuffed cow, whichever one seems more exciting. Both come with equal amounts of slobber!
Via the wonderful Chibird.